Scribble Thoughts

 02/02/2025

Notebook scribbles from commentary on Old Testament under Dr. Tim Mackey; Reflection on Reading The Price and Power of Revival by Duncan Campbell. 

The Prophets to come: Psalm 1 + 2

meditates = hagah 

whisper, murmur, mutters,

speaks, moan

[Deut 34:10-12, Josh 1:7-8]

Josh 1 + Psalm 1 wants you to see yourself as the one in the narrative

PSALM 2 How blessed The poet asks you a question.

Anointed = mashiach 

Messiah, anointed

"But as for me, I have installed my King

upon Zion, my holy mountain"

"Show discernment"

"Do homage."; "Kiss the Son"

"How blessed are those who take refuge in Him!"

Something really significant!

Psalm 1 + 2 is the window in which I may gaze into the OT and see it is written to me, the reader, and not as a coping skill (Hero example/Theology-Answer book/Inspirational-Heart-Warming/Political Authority)

Power + Price of Revival  Duncan Campbell

"Oh, when shall my soul find her rest? 

My strugglings and wrestlings be o'er,

My heart by my Savior possessed, 

Be fearing and sinning no more?"

Oh, may God create within us a hunger 

"A consciousness of guilt is a vessel into which God wills to pour Hus pardon and Hus recovering grace" (Dr. Stuart Holden)

"But the soul that comes to Jesus through failure, shame, or pain, by His wondrous love and mercy 

may soar as high again."

"There is a cry 

everywhere today

for God to do something."

Baffling + frustrating;

it cannot be done

on human levels

"God is preparing

a vessel. It may

not yet be clean

enough for God"

"Be ye clean that bear the vessels of the Lord"

"There is a hunger, and that is why we are encouraged to believe that revival is near."

Oh God, send the heavens and come down.

"I believe that with all my heart - it is the deep convictions of my soul - that [angels] are ever gazing over the battlements of glory and waiting for a prepared people." But give me a people

on their faces, seeking to be rightly related to 

God,...we will soon know the impact of 

God- realization in our country."

God cannot give us His best gifts unless we

hunger for them. "The greatest thing about 

us all is not what we say, it is not what

we do; the greatest thing about us all is our

unconscious influence, and that unconscious 

influence impregnated by the life of Jesus."

"We are crying 'God send it [revival]; but heaven

cries: 'Is your eye fixed upon Me?'" "Get rightly

related to Me." | "men who feared the Lord, but

they served their own gods." May God lead us into truth

Is there a hunger, is there a cry? How in His 

presence and acknowledge it, and bring that vessel

of honesty, sincerity, and of true seeking after God,

and the promise will be fulfilled: I will pour

water upon him that is thirsty."

If yo want revival, get right with God

Hebrides "God, You

promised revival and

if You do not send it,

how can I trust

You again?" ||| A GREAT CONFIDENCE |||

I hunger and I thirst, 

Jesus, my Manna be

Do we expect what we pray for to happen?

I will pour water upon him that is thirsty 

and floods upon the dry ground. 

I am crucified with Jesus and the Cross

has set me free,

Now I live again in Jesus and

He lives and reigns in me.

REPLENISHING + THE EMPOWERING OF OBEDIENCE

"The greatest reality, the greatest face in life

is just the presence of the LORD Jesus."

And I love Him; that is greater than preaching; 

it is greater than seeing revival. The greatest

thing of all is just to have fellowship with Jesus. 

He gives His Spirit to those who obey. 

Are you going to bring your empty vessel?

If you do, He will fill it. 

ACTS 4:29 - Now, LORD, consider their threats 

and enable your servants to speak Your word

with great boldness. Stretch out Your hand 

to heal and perform signs and wonders

through the name of Your holy servant Jesus. 

After they prayed, the place where they were

meeting was shaken. And they were all 

filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the

word of God boldly. 

A question so vital in its issue, so devasting

in its implications: Is the Church we know 

today a light that marks the road that

leads men to the Cross? ||| [Regarding ACTS 4]

"I discover here that a power is placed at the

disposal of the Church that can outmaneuver

and baffle the very strategy of the devil,

and cause death and defeat to vanish

before the presence of the LORD."

Barrenness is made to feel His fertilizing power. 

How is it that revival tarries?

What did the early church have that we do not?

Early believers believed in UNCTION FROM ON HIGH,

AND NOT ENTERTAINMENT FROM MEN.

How did they get the people at Pentecost?

-The people were arrested and drawn together and brought into vital relationship with God, not

by sounds from men, but by sounds from heaven."

||| The early Church put POWER BEFORE INFLUENCE

What do we mean by influence?

"Introduce you to a young woman...she is not

educated... but I have known that young man 

to pray heaven into a community, to pray

power into a meeting. I have known that

young woman to be so caught in the power

of the Holy Spirit that men and women

around her were made to tremble not

influence, but power | Seek power even at 

the expense of influence; never compromise

to accommodate the devil."

Finney: "Away with your milk and water preaching

of the love of Christ that has no holiness

or moral discrimination in it; away with

preaching a Christ not crucified for sin."

We are afraid of disturbing people today.

Who are we to dictate to Almighty God as to

how He is going to work? If God chooses to move 

in that way, if God chooses to convict men and 

women of their sin that they will be about 

to lose their reason, I say, God move on until we can

see again what was witnessed in the Edwards

Revival, in the Finney Revival, in the Fifty-nine

Revival...and praise God, today...moving in

supernatural

reality."

Rev Robert Bars     South Africa "This is what our

age needs, not an easy-moving message, the 

sort of thing that makes the hearers feel

all nice inside, but a message profoundly

disturbing...The Holy Spirit will have

nothing to do with a message or with a 

minister who is afraid of disturbing.

It is fire we want. 

Then the miracle happens.

"Oh, handle the last piece, LORD"

if the fire is to fall, the last piece must be handled. 

only when we submit can we know His mighty power

There is a law in the science of dynamics 

that tells us that all power is measurable 

at the point of its application. Are we 

prepared to apply that principle in the spiritual

realm, to make this profound discover that

when we come to the end of ourselves, we

can reach the beginning of God?"

Obey the law of the Spirit and the 

Spirit of God will respond to you. 

Isle of Lewis: "You made a promise, and I 

want to remind You that we believe that You

are a covenant-keeping God, Your 

honor is at stake."

(In the place of travail) 

When Zion travailed

she brought forth children.

Dr. Inwood Keswick (1924) "Christian men + women, self -

renunciation is the cardinal ethic of the

Christian Church." "Is it not true, too

often our very best moments of yielding +

consecration are mingled with the destructive

element of self-preservation?"

Who may ascend the mountain of the Lord?

Who may stand in His Holy place?

The one who has clean hands + a pure heart,

who does not trust in an idol

or swear by a false good.

They will receive blessing from the LORD

and vindication from God their Savior. "

THE GATEWAY OF A FULL AND UNCALCULATING

CONSECRATION |||| The essential nature

of sin is my claim to my right to myself

Consecration is my relinquishing of that claim. 

"God in His wonderful mercy has made provision

by which we can become the possessors of a 

life of purity, a life of power, a life through 

which there flows the blessing of revival,

a life that has all its springs in God."

Is it really possible to know the blessing

of a clean heart?

"Twas most impossible of all

That here sin's reign in me should cease.

Yet shall it be, I know it shall; 

Jesus look to Thy faithfulness!

If nothing is too hard for Thee!

All things are possible for me."

"Thro' all my soul its waters flow,

Thro' all my nature stealing; 

And deep within my heart I know

The consciousness of healing."

"Despair often is the womb from which real faith is born."

Two elderly women pleading one

promise: "I will pour water upon him that

is thirsty, and floods upon the dry grounds"

Heart purity; he shall receive the blessing

of the LORD ||| Are my hands clean, is my heart pure?

Have I a vision of my own desperate need?

4:12

 Today is one that I want to write about.

I woke up at 2:30a to the blare of K-ROCK from my neighbor's back shed. My window was open and so was theirs from when someone shattered their glass out of violence yesterday in the middle of the night. Night two of the police being called. I remember Smashing Pumpkins' "Tonight, Tonight" played before it was cut dry but the red and blue lights. I called because it was loud and I couldn't sleep, but also because I wondered if the music was covering something underneath, I feared round two of domestic or self-inflicting violence. This street has already seen bloodshed in the oppressiveness of night this year. 

I worked at the pharmacy 8:30a-1p. It was day one of the Tulip Festival. The regulars came in as if with the script "you wouldn't believe how far I had to park in my own town to pick up my own prescriptions."

"Sorry about that." the pharmacist would say. 

The tulips had their arms wide open in the garden bed out front. The red more robust than the cream-colored. Droves of people clothed in flowing dresses and long-folded shorts colored the sidewalks and streets. The food trucks parked directly across from us in the drug store. Aroma. A woman that is gentle came in for some dye-free Benadryl soft gels for her children, said she forgot it was Tulip Festival this weekend and that she and her husband was taking their children to a zoo in Overland Park. "Someone would likely get a heat rash or something," she commented. Her eyes widened, "there's so much life outside!" Oh I just loved that. 

She comes in sometimes for her family's medicine. I often ponder this thought, that she just gets it. 

You know what I mean?

This depth swirls within me, where so many don't want to wade...with some I feel like I am a shallow-hugger myself...but she feels comfortable to be around, and I think how I hope to be comfortable with difficult depths for others. 

I have been having nightmares recently. An oppressiveness that lowers like black fog. God please show me what I need to see. Jesus I bring what I see, bound before Your throne, that You will decide what to do with it. 

I worked at Vanderbilts 2p-6p. I worked with Kaycee, Quinn, Brad, Kadence, Garrett P., Lili, and Izzy. It is a great and incredible joy getting to work with those people. 

I came home to Nate sleeping slumped in the chair and I was again in the place when he would drink himself confused. I was mad. We talked later, he said he doesn't know how to make it so that I can trust him again. He said he talked to his dad. I hugged him and said I trust him. I needed to hear him say that. 

I video called my mom while I ate a chicken salad that Nate made. She said that they were looking into visiting us! Oh, my heart. The sincere and deep well of joy of getting to have them visit. Nate was as, if not more excited. He said how he wants to play and record music with Byrd. Lord, we give this opportunity to You, that You will go before us into the time and place for them to visit, that it will be sanctified, that You will be there. That revelation will come to us, that life will come from it in Your name. You are always with us, please keep us from getting fixed on anything other than you.

At 7:30p I saw Steel Magnolias with Emma at the Columbian. It was precious. Oh I cried. I thought, that hair salon became a sacred place for their vulnerability. I got a text from Kim during intermission asking if I could call to talk about some thoughts. 

After Emma and I parted I called Kim and we talked about what we are moved by and what we want to do. I have this idea for an event. Kim has this idea for creating a place where real emotions are welcome like therapy but with others. We talked about how shame steals life and brings death of every kind. She tells about how her body responded to trauma. 

We are praying for a date to be made known to us. May this date be the time for my family to come, that they may come to an event. Thank You Lord. 

Psalm 24

Looking Back: late January 2025 (Scribble Thoughts)

 Dry Bones

army fit to 

stand spiritually 

against Jer 6

Babylonia

spiritual army

Yes we see

the army on

the horizon

tomorrow

"noon, no tonight"

They are coming

for us with

orders from 

the Maker

It is so our eyes

can see what

God has begged 

us to see but

we refused because

the darkness is so

dark - the army 

coming over the hill

is the war already

being waged. The

acts of filth playfully

rolled in the night

is the spear plunged

long ago in my

own spirit. 

We die. The Dry 

Bones is the evidence 

of death already

outworked in 

my fabric

and I till the

field and reap and

sow. But

now I can see it

and I smell it. 

And you say

"Son of man,

can these bones 

live?"

Sovereign Lord,

you alone know. 

Your work of 

redemption.

Yes, for our bodies. 

But even more

for our souls. 

For You do 

not say we will

come back to life,

but alas, to 

come,

because the war

was waged long

before. I was

born dead. 

***

Babylonia army

physically represents

spiritual forces

of evil in the

heavenly realm

Dry Bones

represent army

coming together

to stand firm as

armor -

physically representing

the spiritual armory. 

Is it the 

coffee or are 

you saying 

something

incredibly 

profound?

Looking Back: late January 2025 (Scribble Thoughts)

"Dry Bones"

Does God slay the people who become dry bones?

Bones of Kings

officials? Judah 

Priests, Prophets

People of Jerusalem 

= removed from these 

graves

*EXPOSED to sun, moon, stars

"Which they have loved + served + followed 

+ consulted + worshipped"

"They will not be gathered up or buried

but will be like

dung lying on the 

ground"

Ezekiel 5?

"Whenever I banish them, all the survivors of this evil

nation will prefer

death to life in Job 3:22

When people fall down do they not

get up" Rm 14:13,

• STUMBLING
• OBSTACLE
• TRAP Pr24:16

What have I done?

"I will lay the dead bodies of the 

Israelites in front

of their idols, and I 

will scatter your 

bones around your

alters."

JER 8:1-2 The Valley

of Slaughter

"Topheth" or

"Valley of Ben 

Hinnom" Jer 19:6

"will bury until there 

is no more room"

Jer 8 (cont.) Ps12:1-3

"Pursues course"

"They dress the wound of my people 

as though it weren't

serious"

"'Peace, peace', they

say when there is 

no peace."

Jeremiah 8

that the LORD

will slaughter

the people through 

the Babylonians

without dignity

Jer 5-8 gives

clues to Ezekiel 

+ Dry Bones

Punishment and

Disobedience

Visual of People 

with large beast

in large cage with

collars + chain feeding

each day food is 

prayer beast is God

but actually god-

beast (God) informs

Thought on idols:

Why is it such 

a big deal?

I know it is...

but why?

JER 6 :

"A horrible and 

shocking thing

has happened

in the land:

The prophets 

prophesy lies,

the priests rule

by their own

authority, and my 

people love it this

way. But what 

will you do in the 

end?"

Looking Back: January 22, 2025 (Scribble Thoughts pt. 3)

CR overwhelming

burdening crushing

feeling belief     that

I do not belong. 

my voice does not

belong, my thoughts

do not, my ideas, 

gender, intelligence.

background - 

prayer by Darlene 

Zschech for the 

one, at CR

stumbling over 

role in family. 

continued to 

others, hateful

inner feeling that

I don't belong 

unworthy - 

gets to final 

woman new,

she looks at me

and says thank

you because she's 

in good company. 

Looking Back: January 22, 2025 (Scribble Thoughts pt. 2)

Present One -

LORD, friend,

counselor, Spirit,

Breath, Father,

King, Renovator,

Sustainer, Author, 

Artist, Potter, Song-writer,

Chef, Baker, Caretaker,

Pharmacist, Doctor, 

Evangelist, Manager,

Administrator, Sales-

person, custom

service Representative,

Senator, Cabinet

official, Custodian,

Teacher, Educator, 

Poet, may the LORD

who sits over the flood

as King Forever guide

my mind as I 

write and go about.  

Looking Back: January 22, 2025 (Scribble Thoughts) and happy birthday to my mom ❤️

Listening: Mighty God, Father, Friend by Ghost Ship

What are the Dry Bones in Ezekiel?

Bones dry

brittle dusty

empty hollow. 

blood made 

in bones manufactured

dusty made from

dust; remnant,

"remember"

bones of house,

structure, "to

stand"

Application?

Sit + linger at the

table, don't look

for escape because

this is it.  This 

is defeating the

enemy; presence

defeats the enemy.

ARMY; armor, belt,

breastplate, footwear,

shield, helmet, sword

Ezekiel stood 

because of

the Spirit when

he was afraid.