Fall Afresh On Me

I don't want to be the self-proclaimed judge. And I don't want to be self-righteous.
I don't want to be the plastered smile or the hypersensitive.
I don't want to be the too well behaved.
I don't want to be envious.
Or Unavailing.
Or Corrupt.
Or Impure.
Or Idolatrous.
Or Hateful.
Or Hurtful.
Empty.
I don't want to be empty.
I don't want to be full of myself.
"But pride is full of enmity - it is enmity." (C.S. Lewis)

en-mi-ty
Noun: The state or feeling of being actively opposed or hostile to someone or something
Synonyms: hostility - animosity - antagonism - hatred - feud

It's a terrible thing to be hostile towards oneself.
James 4:4 You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world means enmity against God? Therefore, anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.
The world in this context refers to the values, ideas, practices and relationships of the culture-at-large, especially those that are not God-directed.
1 John 5:4-5 for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world? Only the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.
Some times it's too hard for me to grasp that. To this I understand that being prideful is a fruit of the flesh; which I believe to be synonymous with the world.
Pride creeps over me like this:

It's not good. But it's interesting that when I am filled up with myself how empty I feel. In that case I am led to the example of God's fulfillment in my life, and how I am incomplete without Him.
Some times it's too hard for me to grasp that too.

Awaken my soul, come away
To hunger, to seek, to thirst
Awaken First Love, come away
And do as You did at first
Spirit of the Living God come fall afresh on me
Come wake me from my sleep
Blow through the caverns of my soul
Pour in me to overflow,
To overflow
Spirit come and fill this place
Let Your glory now invade
Spirit come and fill this place
Let Your glory now invade
(Fall Afresh by Jeremy Riddle)

That came on my radio as I was typing. Oh God awake my soul. Even unknowingly I've fallen away from You and fallen into my own hostility. As upsetting it is to admit, I'm wrong in my selfishness and it's turning me to mush. Lord blow through the caverns of my soul.
Pour in me to overflow.
I want to be empty of myself.